Did I / miss out on you?

So I just got back from seeing Feist (Leslie Feist) JUST NOW and I have to write something or else I might just explode!!!!! Not only was she absa-fucking-fantastic but her lyrics are so phenomenal and my brain was just whirring all night with thoughts about my current state of affairs. Her words... aaahhhh, her words.....

I realized I have become a bit of a grump lately. I can try to explain it but I don't expect for it to come out very clearly. My work is nothing short of exhausting every day, and although I still love my job and the kids it's exhausting! I'm not smiling as much as I feel I should be, or would like to. And it's hard to let go of it at the end of the day. I dream about it, and I need about two hours after work to stop thinking about what happened that day at random moments and to get my OWN life back. Anyway I know I'm not usually like this so I'm trying to start making a conscious decision to stop letting it seep into everything else. Maybe I'm worried I'm turning into one of those people who talks about her job all the time, and who thinks about nobody but themselves. Or maybe I just need more of my own life so it doesn't become so hard to do. I know I'm exaggerating a little bit (at least I hope that I am) but that's seriously how I feel. I guess the good thing is maybe I recognize it? So I can stop this dead in my tracks and be better somehow?

Feist was so, well, FEISTY, and she makes me want to get up and shout about everything good in my life. I hope I can turn over a new leaf somehow (oh, how autumnal) and start shouting on a daily basis. Not literally, mind you, but when things are amazing, or even when they're just beautiful or delicate. I don't want to stop admiring all the wonderful things in my life. Of which there are many. You know who you are...

I'm going to leave it at that, maybe I'll figure out a better way of explaining this and get back to you soon.