A bulleted list is the most organized way I can think of organizing my thoughts right now

Beautiful things from this weekend
-Little kids dancing outdoors at the folk festival. Little kids playing on the hill, chasing after balls, hula-hooping, learning how to walk, etc.
-Musicians jamming onstage.
-Reading outdoors, falling asleep outdoors, eating outdoors, basically anything outdoors, esp. when surrounded by good music.
-Meeting new people, trying not to be shy.
-Delicious food made by other volunteers.
-Wading in the river
-Hot mini donuts (I know, it’s silly in the context of everything else, but they really were delicious)

Favourite new musicians to my collection:
-Jeremy Fisher
-Final Fantasy
-Ridley Bent
-the hummers

Favourite new clothing item not owned by me (nor ever to be owned by me, most likely):
-Shorts with suspenders, with bikini top underneath, v. hot.
-In related news, Rufus Wainwright’s liederhosen with knee socks

Things on my mind distracting me from above-mentioned fabulousness
-Missing Ryan and Ed and Fiona as folk-fest buddies (i.e. not sharing this with anybody)
-Wondering if I should sell my condo or rent it
-Wondering who I would rent it to
-Wondering if the bank will do its job and give me my money so I can buy a plane ticket already
-Trying to stay in the ever-shifting shade cos it’s a bajillion degrees hot outside
-Wondering if I am brave enough to actually go through with this hair-brained idea of an early retirement
-Feeling crazy for feeling certain things that I am feeling…..
-Wondering when to come home
-Wondering when to leave for N.Z.
-Wondering if I will be able to leave job, friends, etc behind without feeling too terribly sad or not (hint: already feeling v. sad)
-Wondering what I will have to pack
-Wondering if I should have my free gelato today or tomorrow
-Watching all the babies, why is everyone at folk fest either pregnant, carrying a baby, or chasing after a baby? And why are they all just bucket-fuls of cute?
-Wondering if anybody will go rafting with me THIS summer…
-Wondering if I will ever stop getting ahead of myself
-Wondering if I can decide what to deal with first, and then follow Darren’s it-sounds-so-good-on-paper idea of taking things one step at a time
-Trying ever so hard to breath in big deep breaths and trust that everything will work out the way it is meant to